Lullaby

I used to fall asleep in a matter of minutes..

Give me my bed..
My blankie..
A comfortable position..

And a lullaby.

This used to be my lullaby for 10 months..

I end up memorizing it...

And my lullaby now.. 

I end up crying myself to sleep.

Still effective.

Flying This 2012

I have always wanted to travel more. I actually thought that I get to enjoy this with G but since he and I are no longer together.. I am going solo flight.

I have always wondered if I can do it on my own. I haven't tried this EVER...but now is a perfect time to start testing my limits..exploring more..and finding more about myself. Besides, who knows what I will encounter on my trip? Business Ideas, Work, More Acquaintances and a dose of Culture. I like Culture.

I. SINGAPORE: Should be booked soon. A week-long drinking vacation with my bestfriend Y and enough time to explore the city on my own (since bestfriend Y got work thus I only get to see her after her shift). I'm excited. Anybody in SG who wants to meet up? There are some friends who are already in SG (those who went there right after college)..so I am looking forward to meet up with them too.

II. SOUTH KOREA: Ofcourse it's "South". Us girls will go there before the year ends (before Bestfriend A gets married). We were trying to figure out where we want to go. We want snow, we don't want sun (we need to keep our complexion for the wedding), we want it in Asia, we want to wear boots (hahahaha)...thus S. Korea.

Now Trip III is difficult. I have always wanted to go Santorini, Greece but its too near Sofia. Too much sad emotions and memories can ruin a trip..and so I don't want to go there. Maybe next year when feelings are more manageable. Who knows.

So for now, Santorini is out of the picture.

New York: I miss Gary. I just received a long call from him  during my lunchbreak. He shared with me some wonderful news...and I just want to be there for him. But when is the best time to go to New York?

Germany: This tops my list. I'm planning to meet A there. I'm sure I have a place to stay. I can easily go around. Bestfriend Y is also pushing for me to visit Germany this year-she's quite sure that I'll have loads of fun. I have to start preparing for this option.. My friend A needs to send me an invite.

Where are you off this 2012? For me, I can't wait to escape Manila.

It Will All Get Better In Time

In the absence of my bestfriends (Y in Singapore, G in New York, A in Marrying-Mode, RA in getting laid mode)... I try to cope and sing with 'boyce avenue'..

I guess in the middle of a storm... I shouldn't lose my hope and faith.

Hope that time will ease the pain.

Hope that it will all get better...

When Words Are Not Enough

I have always been the talkative one.

I have always been expressive.. I talk talk talk. 
I say what I mean and I mean what I say.
I never run out of words..I express myself well.
May it be in anger, in despair and in happiness-words easily pour in.. my thoughts are naturally connected to my speech.

But now, no words can express what I feel.

I don't want to talk about it.

I want to keep it all in...digest it.

It certainly feels lonely...

A certain emptiness..

It feels suffocating...

But what can I do... for the first time in my life, words are not enough to express what I feel.

Happy 4th 25th Birthday to ME!

It's my 4th 25th birthday..and yes, I will make myself forever 25.

It will be an amazing year and an abundant one too.

I have so much to share.. and I have new  plans for my blog.. so keep up with me.. :)

Note: How do I make my personal blog? I'm planning to shift to my own site? :) Any techy-recommendations?

This New Company Rocks!

It's official! I am now an employee of this new company.

I had my orientation for 2 days, and I went on board last Wednesday.

It felt weird being a 'newbie'. I know I will learn a lot of new things that will eventually help my career yet I hate the feeling of being oh so needy; being dependent on my assigned 'buddy' to show me the ropes.

I have to learn fast because expectations need to be met yet I have to remain patient with myself and not be easily frustrated with situations that I am clueless of.

I like my team-warm, sincere and collaborative. I'm sure I will learn a lot from each one of them. I like being part of the workforce, I know that I am on the right track and that I belong here. I see growth and vast opportunities.

This is my new organization and I am proud to be part of it!

Christmas Is Just Around The Corner

I haven't even bought or wrapped a Christmas gift. 

Oopsy, not even a single Christmas card too (I like personalized Christmas cards!).

I am that delayed in my Christmas shopping (mental note: please start soon!) because I've been preoccupied with my work turnover (I've been studying for this new role). 

My mind whirled (and still whirls) around my transition to this new organization...sooo many things to do and I'm working with limited resources (I don't have a car as of the moment so its hard to get around Manila for my requirements). My thoughts are into this new exciting adventure with this new organization that I lost track that Christmas is just around the corner. Yikes.

Christmas.I like Christmas. It gives me a warm happy feeling. A day to stop all work related thoughts and simply be with my family to cook, eat and open gifts together. Its a day of laughter and love for me. I grew up spending every Christmas with my parents and my sister-so I can't even imagine not spending it with them. 

This Ad from Coca Cola snapped me out from my all-about-new-work-mode  and it also made me quite emotional. It centers around Overseas Filipino Workers (OFWs) who are working hard abroad for their families in Manila. I have  OFW friends with bigger and happier paychecks but they would always tell me that Manila will always be their home. And  most of us would agree that there's no place like home.

So even if this is staged and it's a marketing campaign.. I like it. Touched my heart and made me emotional. It's Christmas soon and how I wish everyone can spend it with the people they love most.

22 days 'til Christmas. 

What are you plans to make it extra special this year?