Brave

Sing with me..

"I might be afraid..but it's my turn to be brave."

Eat Pray Love 2012

Teaser: I'm doing an EatPrayLove this year.

My own docudrama will be

Eat: Singapore (DONE!)

Pray: Bali

Love: Germany

I had an amazing time in Singapore...and my tummy ate as much.

I had to ask my bestfriend to remind me that this is part of my EAT journey as not to feel guilty every time I Chomp Chomp Chomp on chili crabs and hawker food :) Yum.

All the details will be shared in my new blog :)

I'll keep everyone posted!

I'm Back :)

I'm Back.

A Better-Me.

I'm  fixing my new blog and I will launch it soon..I hope you can all follow me there :)

My life has been in fast-forward..so much things to share with everyone. :)

Let me just organize my thoughts and myself :)

 

Impossible

All we had is gone now.

Little Yellows

Georgina's babies...

Happy Valentines!

I took a sick leave yesterday, I was on heavy dose of painkillers and Valium.

My day was composed of 1/2 in pain-1/2 sleeping

I pushed myself to go to the office today so that I won't miss out on much work. 

Workload tends to pile up pretty fast and that's something I don't want to happen.

While I was on my way to the office,  it was actually cute to see so much roses and balloons around. It was cute to see couples giggling. It was cute to see men buying bouquet of flowers.It's cute. I remember that happy giddy feeling.

I had a funny valentines day despite my health and heart condition. I went retail shopping, had dinner with lye and also watched a movie. It was refreshing.

Sharing with you what was on my office desk... Yes, I munched on that cupcake and 3 kisses (Thank you!)

Happy Valentines Day Everyone :)

A Painful Sunday

I hate hospitals. 

I hate the smell of it.

I hate being around people in pain-its a torture place for me.

The past few days, I have been nursing this back pain that just won't go away.

I've been in so much discomfort-stabbing pain on my back.

I took the usual pain relievers-but the relief was short-lived.

So I had no choice but to go to the hospital and have myself cleared.

It was a painful Sunday literally and figuratively.

G told me that he'll be with me.

Ofcourse, he's good in making promises.  And his promises are often wordy.

As usual, words are words-it ended there. Painful as it is. That's him.

My Persian friend was so nice to even ask me if he can go with me in the hospital. I said yes.

But when Sunday came, and the pain was just too much.. I decided to just go on my own.

I went to Makati Medical Center, I was born here. Nice memories.

  

I went to the ER. It was a breeze. The nurse saw my discomfort and immediately made me lie down on a bed. The feeling of 'rushing yourself' to the ER is weird. Mixed feelings.

Painful because G gave me his word and he fucked up again. Painful because well..my back was really painful.

And so I was wheeled around for some test, I also had a back x-ray done, and since it was a Sunday-no consultants to read it. The resident doctor gave me Valiums (injection) and pain reliever (injection)..which made me drowsy. 

I kept on telling the nurse to use a butterfly needle but she said they don't use it there. I said in Asian Hospital-they usually use butterfly on me, and the nurse repeatedly said that they really don't use it there. The result was 5 fuckin attempts to shoot the needle on my vein.. and the last one was a flop because it caused a 'bubble' because the vein collapsed. Grrrr..

 

I think the nurse was nervous so she called on to the doctor to do it instead. Thank you doctor. The injected medicines were painful and thick.. thus, I seriously cried while holding on my sheet. (Yes, it was a baby thing to do, but my pain tolerance just went down. It fuckin hurt.) The doctor was nice and patient-even rubbed my arm for comfort. Then I fell asleep.

Clear results will be out this week.

Initial diagnosis shows that I don't have broken or injured bones.

Something with my back muscles..which I have to meet a consultant to clear that out.

I'm still drinking my medicine.

I'm following the prescription.

I'm still drowsy.

So whats the lesson here...

I can depend on myself.

I don't need G.

I will be okay.