Rainbow Bridge

My sunshine decided to sleep last October 15.

I miss her.

I find myself in tears whenever I think of her-not just because of her absence: but also because of how she touched my heart and how she remained to be my Kimmie up to the very end.

Kimmie didn't respond to the 'flush'. Her creatinine went up despite the IV and the medicines.  I was given an option to do another 'flush' but it would only lengthen Kimmie's life for a couple of days..and it wouldn't even lessen the pain. So I decided to bring her home. I tried my best to give her happy days despite her condition; gave her home care, food that she wants, medicines, play time, and all the love from us. Oh when I brought her home, she was so happy to see Borris and Georgina. She was home-away from the hospital smell and the strangers handling her. Somehow, I feel that it was a good decision.

I'd like to think that I gave Kimmie my all-but who am I to say that. Every single day right after I brought her home, I would I talk to kimmie and tell her to be strong and that she will get better and that she has to eat. --It was painful for me to see her deteriorate right in front of my eyes. Reflexes were slower and she was really thin. She ate to please me but eventually as days pass by-she cannot swallow her food anymore.

Before I left for the office last October 15, I spoke to Kimmie. This time I did not give her the 'pep' talk.. but I hugged her and reminded her that I love her. I told her that she was being brave all through out but I also said that she looked tired. I told her that I can't and won't put her to sleep-so as painful as it  was for me- I said to Kimmie that she should decide. I told her not to worry about me and that I will find a way to be okay and just think of happy memories. I hugged her, and she just looked at me with her labrador droopy eyes.  


When I arrived home just a couple of hours later... Kimmie left me already.

When I said that Kimmie remained to be very 'Kimmie' up to very end, it is because her character was still very her despite that her body deteriorated. She never complained. Not once did I hear her cry. She didn't like being a hassle to anyone. She just receives what is given and never asked for more. When she left me, she went to the backyard; away from anyone to see. She was loyal and was being brave to please me-but when I told her to decide on her own and rest if she is too tired already, off she went very discreetly.. like she doesn't want anyone to have a hard time.

Oh sunshine I miss you. 

You're the most enthuastic one who greets me every morning.

Giving and giving love and never expecting anything in return.

Thank you for a year and 10months Kimmie.

Thank you for showing me love and for being so sweet.

Than you for reminding me that life is fleeting and that everyday should be a celebration of it.

Gone too soon little sunshine, but I know I'll see you again in the rainbow bridge.

I love you my furbaby. 

Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

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