God's Perfect Choice

Faith
I haven't been attending the Sunday mass regularly & I don't agree on some arguments of the Church...But I do have faith. 
I know that God loves me and that God forgives.
I know that God smiles when I am happy and God worries when I am sad.
I grew up picturing God like a father-like the Father of the universe.
And like a child, I had my share of rebellion, bratty and unreasonable days. 
There were also days when I felt like my situation was a 'dead end'--and like a father, He gave me the assurance that everything will be alright. He reminded me to have faith. 
There is still much to know about my God. I still need to trust Him more.
I know the bible and I have memorized a Psalm by heart.
During my dark moments, I would run to Him.
During my happy times-I would whisper a prayer of gratitude.
I feel a bond with Him-I feel that He is just like my dad, He will always be there.


The past few days tore me apart. 
Mixed emotions of fear, pain, confusion and hurt crowded my mind and heart.
And when it got sooo suffocating, I saw myself running to the nearest chapel..
I cried my heartaches out.
In between sniffles-I prayed for strength. 
In between sniffles-I thanked Him for being His child.
In between sniffles-I had my right hand on my heart and asked for healing.
And with God's grace, when I stepped out of the chapel, I felt 'lighter'... I had that feeling that somehow..."in time..the reason for this will reveal itself.." And so, I asked for patience.


My good friend R shared this letter to me.
It's about "God's Perfect Choice" (GPC).
And when I read it-it brought tears to my eyes.
I'm still trying to understand the concept of GPC--but there were lines that spoke to me-like it was for me. 
I'm sharing this with everyone incase you might need this too.
I am constantly reflecting on this..It strengthens my faith. I have to trust Him more.
*I highlighted the lines that hit me most.

God's Perfect Choice

Everyone loves to give himself to someone;

to have a deep soul relationship with another;

to be loved thoroughly and exclusively.

But God says: "No, not yet, not until you are

satisfied, fulfilled and contented

with being loved by Me alone;

with giving yourself totally to Me;

to have an intensely, personal and unique

relationship with Me alone.

I love you My child, and until you discover

that only through Me your satisfaction will be found,

you will not be capable of the perfect 

human relationship that I planned for you.

You will never be united with Me exclusive

of anyone for anything else...

exclusive of desires and longings.

I want you to stop wishing; to stop planning;

and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan

ever existing... one that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the best.

Please allow me to bring it you.

Just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing that satisfaction

knowing that I can give all.

Keep listening, and learing the things I tell you.

You just wait. Don't be anxious. Don't worry.

Don't keep looking off and away from Me...

or you'll miss what I want to show you.

I want to see in flesh a picture of your relationship 

with Me and to enjoy materially and concretely 

the everlasting union of beauty, perfection

and love I offer you Myself.

And then...when you are ready

I'll surprise you with a love far more exciting

than any of you could dream of, you'll see

Understand that until you are ready,

and the one I have for you are ready,

I am working even to this minute to have

both of you ready at the same time.

Until you are both satisfied exclusive of Me

and thus...perfect love and dear one

I want you to have this most wonderful love

knowing that I love you utterly."