Valentines is fast approaching. As much as I want to say that I don't celebrate that Hallmark-Invented-Day, I'm such a sucker for sweetness. I want that Valentine mode for myself. What to do? Where to go on a solo-mode?
I'm seriously thinking of having my own domain-I'm starting to get annoyed with blogspot. I am still at the point of planning the layout, the name and the feel of the new site...but I'm getting there. The question is, will all of you still follow me? I seriously hope so.
I just went back to Belo for a glycopeel facial and I bought my usual facial kit. Their products seriously work for me. For those who want to change their dermatologist or would like to start having a doctor for their skin (for vanity or for health reasons)...just leave me a message and I'll endorse you to my doctor. She's really good and her prescription worked wonders for me. We all deserve to feel and look fab.
Sunday 6:00PM-12:00Midnight is my study mode zone. I realized that there's so much to learn with my work and since I am aiming to be a superstar there (hihi), I really need to push myself more. As recommended by my boss, I should allot time to study and take initiative to learn more. Thus, NERD mode every Sunday works for me.
I never play around with emotions and its very seldom for me to fall inlove with someone.
But when I do.. I'm the hopeless romantic kinda girl..
Most of the times, I end up getting hurt.
So here are few lessons coming from my broken heart and I pray that I will find strength to learn from my mistakes and come out as a wiser and stronger woman.
Honesty has to be the basis of everything.
Guard your heart and be careful with where you place your trust or how you are drawn into a persons life.
Words are just words.
Action reveals what a person truly believes and exposes their character.
It's easy to say the 5 letter word "Sorry".
It's also easy to say the 3 words "I love you".
Trust God and believe that He has an amazing plan for you. Learn to let go.
In happiness or in despair, never compromise your values.
Keep some pride and love for yourself.
Plant your own garden rather than waiting for someone to give you flowers..do things to nourish your soul.
Carrie: You do this every time! *Every* time! What? Do you have some sort of radar? Carrie might be happy - it's time to sweep in and shit all over it? Big: What? No, no, I came here to tell you something. I made a mistake. You and I... Carrie: You and I - *nothing*! You can not do this to me again! You can not jerk me around! Big: Carrie, listen to me. It is different this time... Carrie: Oh, it's never different! It's six years of *never* being different! This is it! I am done! Don't call me ever again! Forget you know my number! In fact, forget you know my name! And you can drive up this street all you want - because I don't live here any more!
Maybe she doesn't trust my zombie mode. I'm just drifting.
On our way home, she told me to listen to this song because maybe I'll find the lyrics close to my heart.
I'm seriously not even trying to analyze what happened...what for. There's no point in trying to understand it anymore. In the end, it will just be my thoughts.
The only person who can answer my questions would be G. But he's happily skiing somewhere or out drinking beer with his friends. My heart tells me that he does think of me. My heart tells me that maybe he will find his way back to me...but then again, I don't trust my heart anymore.
I thought I feel him and that I feel what he feels. I thought there was a deeper kind of connection between us-something rare and true. But what happened between us just showed that it was just me hoping. That my heart can't even detect a lie. In the end, it was only me.
There was no G&K to begin with. It was never real.
It was what I wanted, It was what I dreamed of. But it was never real.
And I should start accepting that.
Like what this song tells me... maybe we are better off this way.
“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.” —I Corinthians 13:4-8
